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I’m going to choose about 30 photos to print out to create a college on one wall in my room. So awesomezomg

Silent Revelations

So I got different treatment from when I wore my spectacles and when I didn’t. I went for Etude, a symphonic band concert held by NJ’s symphonic band today with my classmates. When I got back to boarding in the lift I was trying to press the 5th floor button but it didn’t occur to me that a guy was asking me which floor so he could help me press then when the guys teased him because I dao-ed him (I didn’t expect him to talk to me!) I realised The Truth. Basically everyone just treats you better if you’re good looking. If you’re pretty people will help you and they will form good first impressions about you. It’s actually pretty obvious. Oh this world is screwed up. Can’t wait to be pretty in uni when I can finally get special contact lenses for astigmatism. 😦

I must remember to be happy because of at least one thing that happened each day.

Perfection

I hate how I look now especially since I know I can look better. When I am older and have money this is what I will do:
1) Get contacts specially made for astigmatism.
2) Get stylish clothes that fit me well. No more inferior goods.
3) Get braces. Good teeth works wonders.
4) Get good skincare products.

THAT’S ALL I NEED. 😦 I wish I had more money so I could do all that now like what some people are doing at my age.

Well, at least I know I’ll get prettier when I grow up.

Now I truly understand the meaning of religion and why it came about

The early-morning trip to the temple was thought-provoking. As I prayed to the gods I realised how much this form of emotional support helps people. It’s something that we can believe in. Something to guide us in the way we live and how we can live it. Something to tell us, hey, things will get better in time. You just gotta believe so.

I’ve never been one to treat religion as something essential, something important. I understood why people came up with religion but I was never appreciative of the importance of it. Of how much it impacts society. Because I used to think. I am my own religion. I believe in what I think is right. But sometimes, we get lost. We aren’t perfect. We need this pillar of strength that remains unchanged no matter how stormy the seas are.

I used to be an atheist; I still am. I believe in the psychological effects of religion. Yet I still firmly believe that all these things are figments of people’s imaginations, our ancestors’ imaginations, created to allow us to have our own understanding on life and the way things are. We feel as though we are not all alone in this world (yet how true is that, really?) and there is at least someone/something up above that knows everything.

This adorable dog at the temple loves me so much. My heart was breaking when I saw it attached to the chain. It was totally wagging its tail at me and kept licking my hand.

Now I want a dog so bad. Dogs will love you no matter what. I am prepared to take care of one though when I grow up. Not now. There’s simply no space at home and school’s an inflexible bitch.

Finally home!

Finally arrived home! Throughout boarding I felt so stinky and unclean, even if I bathed. Inferiority complex. Is it me, or am I getting uglier day after day. And I feel out of place in my class. They’re… Abnormal. And I’m intimidated by those who are good with words. They can suan people so easily.

So fate be it that I get Soniya as a roommate…(another charismatic one there) I don’t see her around much because she’s involved in many activities and she crashes other rooms when she’s actually around. I don’t see her studying at all and I don’t know how that works.

sometimes I secretly wonder if I’ll be able to survive in this dog-eat-dog world because I am awkward and not good with words and I process words into thoughts slower than many others here.

In the gym with baorong, the person I feel the closest to in Nj. It’s a mess, I know, my social life.

I went to a wishing well and sank to the ocean floor

I knew sleeping at 2am continuously a few days before boarding started was the best choice. I’m not as tired as most people here although of course I am also tired (in fact just as tired as I was when I wasn’t boarding which is kinda strange).

Hahaha PW group mates above, while trying to do up GPP.

And I’m so happy that I scored a goal during our Floorball match today! 🙂 This is the second consecutive Floorball session that I’ve scored a goal. Really hope this continues on throughout the sessions. And that I can score even more goals as the year progresses.
Also glad that I ran about 7-8 rounds today in total.

I’ll FINALLY be going home tomorrow. The thing I look forward to is BATHING PROPERLY. And having everything in its proper place. My room, the bathroom, kitchen, everything. I feel so bad like I don’t really miss my family at all. I should be missing them right? Am I really that cold-hearted? I don’t even miss the food at home  especially since we’re eating out nearly everyday nowadays. Also I think I kinda like the food here and I’m actually eating more at night because I’m influenced by the availability of food in my “pantry”. In fact I think I miss my parents more when I’m at home alone and I actually start thinking about a lot of things and let my imagination run wild. Perhaps I’m not  the “right and morally sound way” because of all the things going on, and I don’t actually get the chance to think that much.

Let’s run away and leave everything behind?

What’s the point of what I’m studying now if this is not where my interests lie? I have been deceiving myself all the while about what my true interests are. Now I’m stuck here in this zone where the only thing I can do is to simply continue on. Get my A level cert and see what I can do from there.

Enjoyed the movie at LT 3, My Fair Lady a lot even though it was super duper stuffy like SERIOUSLY we were all suffocating throughout the whole movie.

And I ate my first Maggie Mee at boarding yesterday too ^^

During the house sessions today I saw my og mates again and it seriously feels so surreal. It’s as though I’m connecting two different parts of my memories together and it just doesn’t seem to match. It’s really like nothing’s changed, we’re still strangers-turned-friends starting out at this new school and we’re all here to have fun, yet now we’re just a bundle of good memories disjointed by the harsh fact of school life – tutorials, lectures, tests, examinations… Le sigh.

Till next time (off to mug),
Minmin xo

Boarding: Dawn of a New Beginning

Checked into boarding school today! The room was actually nicer than I expected, after all the scary room stories that were told by the previous boarders. See here is a section of the room that’s mine (because I’m sharing with Soniya)

Pretty alright, hm? Oh and spot my makeshift pillow that’s actually made up of 2 bo lsters HAHA

And I brought my bear along too!

I love my bear so much. ❤ Can't bear to live without it by my side when I'm mugging! Brings back so many great memories of wonderful friendships.

Today was okay I guess, but everything feels so surreal you know. Saw my OG mates again and it feels like nothing has changed and we are back to orientation days but you know that things will never be the same anymore. And you find that you now know more people in your House through the class and CCA stuff. It's really like nothing's changed, we're still strangers-turned-friends starting out at this new school and we're all here to have fun, yet now we're just a bundle of good memories disjointed by the harsh fact of school life – tutorials, lectures, tests, examinations… Le sigh. SHUCKS maybe it's just me!

I don't feel like revising at all ugh econs test is 2 days later and I haven't touched on anything yet I hope I pass the test magically, somehow.

Soniya isn't back from her aristal dance practice yet so I'm not sure if she's going to be an okay roommate or not. She hasn't unpacked anything at all yet. More updates coming soon, bye for now. Gotta revise econs and get some sleep!

Xoxoxoxo,


Minmin

We’ll watch the stars explode into oblivion

It’s half an hour past midnight. & I’m still blogging away. Before 2012, I ALWAYS slept before 12am. Now 12am is like the norm. So now I’m starting to get eyebags! SIGH SO UGLY.

Actually the primary reason why I’m starting this blog is because I’m going for BOARDING
tomorrow! (or rather today since it’s already past midnight) And I’m not going to bring my diary there just in case so I’m just going to blog here. Perhaps I might find some resolve to continue this blog after boarding ends?

Kinda excited about boarding actually. Hopefully it’ll be quite enjoyable and filled with interesting activities so the 3 weeks would zoom by and then JUNE HOLIDAYS would come and all would be wonderful and lovely again HAH.

I’ll be updating on boarding tomorrow too, so watch this space!

Hugs and kisses,
Minmin