First few days of June Holidays

Peperoni pizzeria after CTs ended

The pizza is so good!!
I’m practically still salivating now thinking of the crispy, thin crust, the heavenly cheese (you know, the kind that stretches when you pull a slice away), the marvelous toppings and the egg (brilliantly cooked, added right into the centre of the masterpiece).

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This is a regular-sized pizza selling for $28 which is pretty much the normal price of a pizza. One day I’m going to get the $50 pizza. One day.

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Afterwards we went straight down to RP to watch the Floorball A div guys final (between MJ and VJ).

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So awesome.

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Then on Saturday I went to the PSSC scholarship fair with Annabel and Jacob (who brought 2 juniors and I only had a brief encounter with them) and baorong who came later in the day.

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The hat’s there bc my expression was horrid and it was the best photo of the lot

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Then I attended this event at Zouk the next day.

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First time I’ve been to a club. Funny thing it wasn’t to club but to shop.

Clubbing seems so fun!!!! (of course I’ve only had the dance night during orientation and formal dinner party during boarding that’s somewhat similar but those were so fun. Like no kidding. Best times of my life) Definitely want to go after I turn 18 this year. After A levels.

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Check out my snapchat masterpiece. Punk rock guy oh hotness with fabulous highlights and a tanned body to match and do you spot his abs????!?? HAHAHA.

Snapshots of my life

Breakfast with the family

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Birthday!

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Completing the homework over the holidays.

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With my classmates.

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At the beach w OCIP mates whom I have gotten close to over the span of a week.

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Farewell party for the seniors. Taken at the beach when we were catching the sunrise.

Jumpshot w ocip mates!

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I like how I look here.

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At Cambodia with my ocip-cum-floorball mate

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Above the clouds on the plane.

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At Mekong River in Cambodia.

Life’s good.

Today, I am happy.

Project work’s finally over – after a year of conflict, struggles and tension! Oral presentation exam went relatively well, meaning I didn’t screw up any parts.

Today was my first visit to island creamery and I had my first taste of mudpie. It rained today so walking with the slight cool breeze blowing against us was almost therapeutic.

I also sat at the library’s children corner and chilled for a little while before going home.

today’s been a great day

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My group mates from left to right Rachel Rena Joyce Annabel and I
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My first mudpie!! It was heavenly.
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At island creamery with my friends. Brownie with some icecream flavor I forgot, waffle with cookies and cream and icecream and my mudpie!
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Chiewling and I
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Aish and I
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Aish, me, chiewling

Today

Today we handed in our written report for PW.

So many people my age are so dumb and shallow. My group was really dispersed because we just can’t be chummy with each other. It’s not that I didn’t try. I did. But if the other party isn’t willing to, there’s no point in it already.

So I went with part of the group and part of the class to grab breakfast. I didn’t even feel like talking so I stayed silent throughout and no one even bothered to talk to me. It feels like when I was back in that clique I left because they left me out of everything.

I hate it. I hate feeling like a follower.

The content they talk about is so mundane and shallow. Maybe I belong somewhere else because I feel like I don’t even know how to talk to them without feeling like some fake-ass which isn’t me at all.

Diaries

I read my diaries from secondary one all the way to this year’s. I realised that even though I didn’t know many people in the past, I was happy. I was positive. I enjoyed my simple and slightly mundane life of one or two friends and books for company. I breezed through examinations – scored so well for them. There weren’t much that made me unhappy.

I started changing in secondary two, when I was 14. I started becoming hardcore about songs, about music. Those lyrics I kept close to my heart, the melody drifting though my head at random times in a day.

I became more mature and knew more about the “real world”, so to say. My writing skill was so good. That year, I wrote so many poems.

Times have changed. This year has changed me. Junior college life has changed me. I fear. I became depressed. I know more people now; I talk to more people than I ever had, I think, than all the years that have passed by. But I feel lonelier than ever.

Dark blue, dark blue
Have you ever felt alone in a crowded room?

I got so caught up in my pursuit for the academic excellence I was so used to in the past. But I couldn’t do it. I just couldn’t. The safety net that once kept me secure is now fraying at the ends. If I fall, I’ll probably fall straight down, down, down, crashing to the ground.

Revelations, tears and questioning my mental health. Psychologically, physically and emotionally tortured.

This year sucked.

Day out

The day right after the end of promos, I went out with my friends to celebrate.

With my wonderful gang of fun people

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I’m the one on the left

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We’re all wearing cute shoes!!

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First time seeing a pink bowling pin!

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The alley was empty when we got there in the morning. Then we spent the afternoon at sakae to have a sushi buffet!!
Just look at the food. (and it was only 30min into our buffet)

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Didn’t manage to take a picture of a proper dish – was too engrossed in eating!!

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But this was what I ate in the end! It doesn’t seem a lot. But it was 9 whole plates of sushi. And Udon. And Takoyaki. And chawan mushi. (they cleared the tako and chawan mushi already)

WHY CAN’T I GAIN SOME WEIGHT I AM JUST BARELY ABOVE 40KG. -.-